So the whole process that got me to finally put this up began the week after GenCon, when (as I said in my entry a couple days ago) I was feeling depressed and sorry for myself, and when I saw my therapist the Saturday afterwards, I'm pretty sure what he said could be distilled down to "stop whining and do something about it." That's probably me taking things a bit harder than I should, but frankly, that's been what my conscience has been screaming at me pretty much constantly for years now. Admittedly, in most cases, starting a blog doesn't seem like it would do much in the "stop whining" department, considering that LiveJournal has built a business on marketing to thousands of emo suburban teenagers looking for attention.
However, I think for me, this will hopefully give me an outlet for something I've been doing far too little of lately -- writing. For far too long now, I think I've felt a kind of paralysis about writing, feeling like I am never going to finish anything -- so why bother starting? It's time to break that block down and at least write about something every day, and hopefully making it visible to at least a small number of other people will give me some degree of accountability -- even if, as the title of the blog indicates, no one actually cares about what I'm writing. So, the challenge to myself now is to keep this up.
However, this isn't going to be the only thing I want to make sure I have consistent progress on. Some other things I want to keep up in addition to my daily posts here:
However, I think for me, this will hopefully give me an outlet for something I've been doing far too little of lately -- writing. For far too long now, I think I've felt a kind of paralysis about writing, feeling like I am never going to finish anything -- so why bother starting? It's time to break that block down and at least write about something every day, and hopefully making it visible to at least a small number of other people will give me some degree of accountability -- even if, as the title of the blog indicates, no one actually cares about what I'm writing. So, the challenge to myself now is to keep this up.
However, this isn't going to be the only thing I want to make sure I have consistent progress on. Some other things I want to keep up in addition to my daily posts here:
- One idea a week for the Game Design forum either on Scrapheap Challenge or on the Eve Online boards. For far too long I have wanted to get into game design, but I haven't done a goddamn thing about it other than read books and think about it. I realize that this is not really that big of a step up from that, but at least it's getting something written out, put out for criticism, and keeping me thinking about a game I'm involved with. Maybe it won't go anywhere, but it's a good exercise nevertheless. That's one idea per week too -- if I post something on SHC I'll probably repost it on the Eve Online forums after it's been put through the wringer, but that's still the same idea, so it doesn't count as a new one.
- One new article every two weeks for Cthulhu Rising. That's John Ossoway's awesome Aliens-meets-Call of Cthulhu setting, which I did some work for this spring but sort of let slide this summer. No more. This is going to either be a major revision of a previous article (like the one on Phobos and Deimos I need to rewrite) or something totally new. Time to get myself writing some background material or short fiction for this, if I am really that interested. Not sure this will work out, but it's probably my best chance for some good author credits, which would be something nice to put on the resume for the future.
